One of those days


Don’t feel like being alive today. It’s hard. The sun is scorching. There’s no breeze. I couldn’t pay the driver before he left so he probably thinks I’m a fraudulent person. I zoned out of Prayer Meeting so many times, I wondered why I was even there today. Then I felt guilty that I thought that way. Then I invited a friend over and then hated the fact that they came.


Don’t want to do anything today. It’s hard. I woke up way past noon wondering what pastime I should indulge in today. Nothing seemed appealing. I settled for watching a show. The entire drama just pissed me off. Then I decided to cook, but I just couldn’t garner enough energy to stay through to the end.


Don’t think I want to go through today. There’s still no proper job. My rent’s up and I have to move. My family is going through some kind of season where we all just… take each day as it comes. I don’t know how everyone’s dealing with stuff but I don’t ask them because I’m not sure I’ll be able to be there for every single one of them. It’s hard.


Don’t have a song I want to share today. I pretty much avoided listening to music today because I don’t have the energy to pay attention. I tried to say a prayer but it ended up being about… the hot sun, the pimples on my face and how I wish I had bottles of ice tea in my room. I guess I don’t have the energy to talk about everything else. It’s hard.


Am listening to this instrumental/relaxation/meditation music. There are no words, and for the most part, I don’t know what song is being played so I don’t try to focus on the music. This is perhaps the longest period of time today where I am doing something and haven’t zoned out or gotten frustrated or decided it was too hard and ‘rescheduled’. Thank God!


Am glad the day is over. It was hard. Someway, somehow, I made it through. For that, Lord, I am grateful.

Nana Agyeiwaa Nyameba

P. S. I think I should share the instrumental tune I am listening to. I found it about a year or two ago and I… Am glad I did. Click here to check it out.

2 responses to “One of those days”

  1. Sucks that you had a tough day, but these days are necessary for us to appreciate the good ones. Wishing you a better one tomorrow!

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    1. I guess you’re right! Thanks so much, Stuart. I appreciate your stopping by 🙂


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